09.26.2005 -
Yesterday did not turn into the great day it started out to be. I got my waffles. They were good. Also bought a couple of fall pieces. They're cute. Came home, saw a place for sale we might have been interested in, then things got ugly. Michele was watching football and I just got mean and it went downhill from there. At the end of the night, after cocktails out, we basically broke up and were both crying and thinking about what we would do or were doing. Ugh. I don't even know what I want or how to figure it out. I know I'm not happy right now but think I may be unhappy for all the wrong reasons. Caught up in what is supposed to make me happy and instead I'm just pathetic. I'm having a hard time looking at who I am and took the day off to help figure things out.
We may just take a break from each other and we may break up. The idea of both just breaks my heart.
It really sucks to wake up and look at who you are and not really like yourself.
